Tired...

Tired… yes that’s exactly what I am right now.

Tired of running away from the truth.

Tired of avoiding it

When it stands in front of me

When I know the difference between a truth and a lie

And tired of facing it as well.

Tired of life

Of the world

Of myself

Of accepting things

Of denying things

Of being rude

Of fighting

Of being sorry

Of being hurt

Of hurting people

I am tired of love

Of friendship

Of my own people

Of complete strangers

Of acquaintances trying to get too close

I am tired of talking too much

And of being silent

Of the need to explain myself

Or to listen to explanations

I am tired of thinking whom I can speak to without being judged

Of avoiding people

And of getting avoided and ignored

Completely TIRED of life. Want to end it right away.

But I am tired of thinking about this too.

I cannot do it…. I am tired of being a coward

Tired of being brave too.

Tired of everything.

Tired of waiting…. Will it ever end?

Will it ever give me answers…. for my problems, for my excessive thinking, to what I am or want to be, of the questions I have never asked myself….

TIRED…. TIRED… TIRED.