Let it RAIN....

Rain..

clouds, pour out your feelings

uptil suppressed, feared, unacknowledged

Rain..

clouds, vent it out

and drench me in your feelings

let my tears dissapear in your raindrops

let them be one now

wash my sorrows away

Rain..

let the world never know the truth

and believe what they see

let them see only the beginning

and not the painful end

Rain..

die yourself and give birth to others

RAIN, RAIn, RAin, Rain, rain....

Dedicated to my pillow...

Taking all the beatings and screaming I had to inflict on,

My best fighting partner,

But also being there when I needed to fall back or cuddle,

Protecting me from all the ugliness of the world,

Teaching me, coaching me and being my mentor,

Not only about the world but also about my relationships and outlook towards life,

Hearing me out always,

Talking me out of irrational decisions,

Always having a word of advice, but also being fun to be with,

Cracking jokes, making light of the situation,

But lending a supportive shoulder whenever I needed to cry,

Sometimes scolding, but patient and understanding all the same,

Sometimes talking sense, mostly non sense,

But entertaining all the same…

Thank you for always being there for me..

You made me what I am today!!!

P.S. Dedicated to that special person in my life, whom i fondly refer to as my 'pillow' because no matter how far i go, i'll always find him right there for me, as constant as the universe itself. Thank you dear!!! 

I MISS YOU… Still…

I miss you when I cry,
Because you are no more there to hold me,
I miss you when I am happy,
Because you are no more there to share it with me,
I miss you when I m troubled,
Because you are no more there to understand me.
I miss you when it rains,
Because you are no more there to tease me.
I miss you when I am awake,
Because you are no more there to talk to.
I miss you when am trying to sleep,
Because you are no more there to text me good night.
I miss you when I am asleep,
Because you are no more there in my dreams.

I miss you all the time,
But especially when I think of all the good times we spent together,
And now I realize how I have lost them,
They were the best moments I spent with you.
I try to hear the raindrops falling on the roof,
But all I hear are my tears falling on the cheeks,
And know that I am missing you.

It felt so good when you said am special and close to you,
You made me feel like an angel,
We used to talk for hours on the phone, and meet on every weekend,
And after every meeting it felt like a dream.
Friendship was everything, and love heaven.

I miss our phone calls at all hours of day and night,
Our walks in the park and on the road,
Our bus rides, and bus stop dates,
Our CCD and McD hangouts,
Planning for the future in Taj suites,
Our messages and chats,
Our sharing, our caring for each other,
Our code words, and laughing on each other’s friends,
Joking about rains and clouds,
Telling each other everything that happened during the day,
No matter how immaterial that might be,
We could not survive without each other,
And now we cannot live with each other.
Now our fights have become more important than our friendship,
Love ruined everything.

Now that you are gone, it pains to think
Not only have I lost my love, but my best friend as well.
It hurts to miss you,
Hurts to think about the wrong choices I made- too late I realised,
Too many mistakes, and I lost you forever.
But you have not lost my love,
You are my world, my haven
I can never forget you,
And it breaks my heart everyday,
To think I don’t have you, and can never have you,
Yet I miss you.



Its more like the lyrics of “I need you” by Marc Anthony,

" Oh baby, I need you
For the rest of my life, boy
I need you
To make everything right, boy
I love you
And I'll never deny that
I need you..."

P.S. This is neither a poem, nor a prose. This has no rhyme or rhythm. It has got nothing, saying in the traditional sense, just my raw feelings for my best friend whom i lost to time and circumstances.

All for you..... None for me......

You might not see me sometimes, but i have visions only for you.
You might not hear me sometimes, but i have sounds only for you.
You might not feel me sometimes, but i have sensations only for you.
You might not care for me sometimes, but i have feelings only for you.
You might not feel my presence sometimes, but i m there always for you.
I am your shadow, you are my vista.
I am what you want me to be for you.

Is it this easy to love her?

I may look at you, yet not see you.
I may listen to you, yet not hear you.
I may touch you, yet not feel you.
I may be near you, yet not smell your scent.
I may kiss you, yet not know the difference.
I may accompany you, yet not be with you.
You may think you know me, yet not understand me.
Sometimes a friend, sometimes a foe.
sometimes a soulmate, sometimes a stranger.
I may confuse you, yet interest you.
I may baffle you, yet enchant you.
I may be sweet, I maybe bitter.
And all you are left to wonder is,
Is it this hard to love her?