Saturday, September 5, 2009

Sach Ka Saamna… Part 3

(Part 1 & 2 being already done by Ashish and Azra respectively.)

The rules are thus…
RULE 1
You can only say Guilty or Innocent
RULE 2
You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!

Nopes. I will give my explanations.

Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
Innocent. A casual peck on the cheek or a hug is all that my gal friends have got from me so far. I am very straight.

Asked someone to marry you?
Guilty. Yes, I have done that and meant it too.

Ever told a lie?
Totally guilty. BTW did I mention I can lie really well?

Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back?
Innocent and Guilty, both. Actually I have never really had feelings for someone who did not have them for me first. But ya, had fellings for someone whom I got, then lost (and it continued forever) and have finally found him again!!! The future.. well nobody knows it.

Kissed a picture?
Guilty. Never of a guy or of a superstar, but of a very cute pup (The poster in my room, I kiss it like atleast a 100 times everyday). Can’t resist pups and kittens.. they are soooo very cute.

Slept in until 5 PM?
Innocent. The maximum I have slept has been till 2.30 PM when my mum comes home from her job. Not to mention the sound scolding I got after that!!!

Danced on a table in a bar?
Innocent. I am 22 and never been to a pub, disc, bar or even to a club. But that’s one thing I really really wanna do.. get stone drunk and dance on a table top.

Fallen asleep at work/school?
GUILTY. Absolutely. Totally. The ques. should have been who hasn’t???

Been suspended from school?
Guilty. Not from school, but from XIME. Me and Rahul were playing ‘missed calls’ game during a presentation, when suddenly our marketing teacher caught hold of Rahul’s cell and saw all my missed calls. Took us to the Dean and he suspended us for 3 days. Rahul cried, I did not. Well, he had a reason too, since the Dean also confiscated his cell, and read all his messages and checked his contact and call list (and he was our Ethics prof. in college.. duhuh!!). Anyways, I was very tensed at first (bcz that was my first suspension & I also had to pay a fine of Rs. 500) and then was very happy bcz that meant I got chutti for 3 days which I spent by getting up real late, having breakfast at Satkar, followed by a movie at Forum Mall and finally a dinner treat by my friends at Dominos. I was a real rockstar!!!

Worked at a fast food restaurant?
Innocent. Nah, thought about working in McD during my college days, but din’t get permission from dad. Thank god.

Stolen from a store?
Innocent. I am a real scare baby, could never muster up enough courage to do it.

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
Guilty. This always happens with me when I am having Coke.

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
Innocent. I am not at all a snow person. I prefer beaches and mountains.

Kissed in the rain?
Innocent. We were walking on the road and it was raining, and I felt like kissing him on impulse. But I obviously didn’t bcz we were “just friends”… basically I am a coward.

Sat on a roof top?
Guilty. I totally loved the terrace of XIME girls’ hostel... it was on the 3rd floor, no noise of traffic or anything could penetrate/disturb me and I used to sit there for like hours staring at the stars or the twinkling of lights at far off distance. It was also the place where I used to go to relax, to have some private moments with myself, and also to chat with friends or talk on the phone without being overheard by anyone. But I miss it the most bcz that’s where I used to cry too when I missed home or ‘someone’.

Sang in the shower?
Guilty. More than that, I love dancing in the shower with romantic songs being played in the background. That’s where I play out my romantic fantasies that I can’t really fulfil in reality.

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Innocent.

Made a girlfriend/boyfriend cry?
Guilty. I regret it. But couldn’t help it.

Shot a gun?
Innocent. I hope we are talking about real guns here, bcz I love to shoot water balloons at holi and the normal balloons at stalls where you get a prize in return.

Donated Blood?
Innocent. The only time I tried donating blood was in XIME. But they did not take mine bcz my weight was 3 kgs less than what they wanted. They did not even check my haemoglobin. But I really wanted to experience that feeling.

Eaten alligator meat?
Innocent. Please tell me who eats alligator meat except the guy on Discovery Channel (Man v/s Wild)

Still love someone you shouldn’t?
Guilty. Apparently the song’s that I am listening now says, “Maanga jo mera hai, jaata kya tera hai, maine kaunsi tujhse jannat maang li.. Kaisa khuda hai tu, bas naam ka hai tu, rabba jo teri itni si bhi na chali”…. lol

Liked someone, but will never tell who?
Guilty. I have never told my crushes that I used to like them. But if its serious, then I do tell them.

Been too honest?
Guilty. I always tell whatever I feel very strongly about. Never really bothered to stop and think about the consequences first.

Kissed someone you shouldn’t?
Innocent. Kisses are very special to me, I never do it unless I am very sure. Which means, unless I am TOTALLY IN LOVE.

Ruined a surprise?
Innocent. I have never knowingly ruined anybody’s surprise, but my surprises are ALWAYS ruined. So I understand the importance of surprises, each failure hurts a lot.

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you couldn’t walk afterwards?
Guilty. We used to stuff ourselves to the brim with good hotel food when I was in XIME, Bangalore bcz the hostel food was inedible and our only salvation was outside food.

Erased someone from your friends list?
Guilty. I don’t do it a lot of times, but that means THE END to me. Only one person has been able to come back till now.

Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)?
Innocent. Even when I was an infant, I was dressed up in cute frocks and skirts to emphasise on the point that I am a GIRL (being the only one in my generation!!!)

Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?
Guilty. A lot.

Had communication with your ex?
Guilty. More so bcz my “EX” was never really my ex.. I never stopped loving him or stopped having feelings for him. So he was never really my ‘past’, but was always my ‘present’, though I was totally hopeless about ‘future’. Well that’s what’s Love for me.. once there, always there. I am mushy in love. “Pehli baar mohabbat ki hai… Akhiri baar mohabbat ki hai… “

Got totally drunk on the night before exam?

Innocent. Leave exams, never been totally drunk in my life, but this does not imply that I havn’t tried drinks before.

I tag everyone who wants to have a little fun, and is not scared of speaking the truth.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Double update.. exams approaching!!! ;)

1 A.M.

Online now.. yet nobody to talk to.. my entire gtalk list is offline...where's everyone??? Feeling lonely... wish to talk to someone (anyone actually) about completely random and mindless stuffs.. got a total of 93 entries in my phonebook, yet nobody to call at this time.. queer, isn't it? Feeling strange myself.. Why does it happen that when i want to talk, there's nobody; and when i am in a hurry/busy/not in a mood to talk, its only then i get sooo many calls and messages and buggings on gtalk(despite the DND sign)???

Life.. indeed thou are strangest of all.. I bow before you..

Let it RAIN....

Rain..
clouds, pour out your feelings
uptil suppressed, feared, unacknowledged

Rain..
clouds, vent it out
and drench me in your feelings
let my tears dissapear in your raindrops
let them be one now
wash my sorrows away

Rain..
let the world never know the truth
and believe what they see
let them see only the beginning
and not the painful end

Rain..
die yourself and give birth to others

RAIN, RAIn, RAin, Rain, rain....

Friday, May 1, 2009

Tired...

Tired… yes that’s exactly what I am right now.

Tired of running away from the truth.

Tired of avoiding it

When it stands in front of me

When I know the difference between a truth and a lie

And tired of facing it as well.

Tired of life

Of the world

Of myself

Of accepting things

Of denying things

Of being rude

Of fighting

Of being sorry

Of being hurt

Of hurting people

I am tired of love

Of friendship

Of my own people

Of complete strangers

Of acquaintances trying to get too close

I am tired of talking too much

And of being silent

Of the need to explain myself

Or to listen to explanations

I am tired of thinking whom I can speak to without being judged

Of avoiding people

And of getting avoided and ignored

Completely TIRED of life. Want to end it right away.

But I am tired of thinking about this too.

I cannot do it…. I am tired of being a coward

Tired of being brave too.

Tired of everything.

Tired of waiting…. Will it ever end?

Will it ever give me answers…. for my problems, for my excessive thinking, to what I am or want to be, of the questions I have never asked myself….

TIRED…. TIRED… TIRED.

 

Monday, April 27, 2009

Happy Birthday Bloggie... Muaahhhh


27th april, 09
My blog completes a year according to the Hindu calender. Thats because on 8th May last year i started my blog on the auspicious day of Akshay Tritiya.. and yesterday it was Akshay Tritiya.. so my blog's completed a full circle.. And the stupid stupid me could'nt find time to wish it.. So here it goes...
Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear bloggie, happy birthday to you!!! Thank you for always being there for me. I love you....