Tired… yes that’s exactly what I am right now.
Tired of running away from the truth.
Tired of avoiding it
When it stands in front of me
When I know the difference between a truth and a lie
And tired of facing it as well.
Tired of life
Of the world
Of myself
Of accepting things
Of denying things
Of being rude
Of fighting
Of being sorry
Of being hurt
Of hurting people
I am tired of love
Of friendship
Of my own people
Of complete strangers
Of acquaintances trying to get too close
I am tired of talking too much
And of being silent
Of the need to explain myself
Or to listen to explanations
I am tired of thinking whom I can speak to without being judged
Of avoiding people
And of getting avoided and ignored
Completely TIRED of life. Want to end it right away.
But I am tired of thinking about this too.
I cannot do it…. I am tired of being a coward
Tired of being brave too.
Tired of everything.
Tired of waiting…. Will it ever end?
Will it ever give me answers…. for my problems, for my excessive thinking, to what I am or want to be, of the questions I have never asked myself….
TIRED…. TIRED… TIRED.
