Cute? Is that your problem?

Why do guys mind being called ‘cute’? I mean when you appreciate honesty in a girl, and praise her when she dares to call a spade a spade on the face; then what is the big deal about her calling you ‘cute’ when she actually does find you cute? This is one question that has never failed to baffle me, and I am desperately trying to search for its answer. See, agreed, that my definition of “cute” differs from others, but then I am entitled to have my own opinions. I find a friend of mine very very cute (and he hates the tag, and jokes about it), I even find pups, kitties and small babies very cute (especially the roly poly ones.. the latest being the baby Krishna.. he’s too cute and I am in love with him.) In the institute there’s a guy who looks like a cute grown up baby and I have christened him Cutie Pie.. But I am not supposed to call him that in public. Why? Because he thinks only girls can be called cute. His best friend tells me that it hurts his male ego. So does manliness lies in looking macho? Just in that? AJ said that, “Cute sounds a touch girly. Guys would better be known as tough, rough, macho etc. So they would like if you find them cute but hate it if you say so in public. Male ego.” I say bullshit. I give nick names to all my friends who are really special to me, and prefer being called by my nick name only by them. That’s my way of showing that I care. That they are close to me. That they mean something to me. But no.. now I know how true it is that girls are from venus and boys are from mars. Huh. I mean girls love it if they are given a pet name, but boys… they smirk and make a face. I guess “boys will be boys.” Its not only very difficult to understand girls, but guys for me are incomprehensible as well. 

Why??

I just came back to my room and thought of sharing a small thought of mine with everyone...

 

As I was having dinner with my friends today, invariably our discussion turned towards the Mumbai terror attacks and how Bangalore is also under threat (apparently our Presi got a mail from the police department today stating that Electronic City is under scanner, and so we all need to be extra careful, and henceforth a lot of restrictions have been imposed upon us till the situation cools off.) Everybody was discussing a lot of ideas, and prominently amongst them was that somehow Muslims have always had a part in it, and how bombing Pakistan would solve half the world’s problems. On this I debated fervently because personally I have known and still know so many of them that I strongly feel that no particular sect or country is responsible for terrorism. The people of Pakistan are as guiltless of these attacks as are the people of India. They are not at fault for their government’s doings. Even if Pak is bombed, is it going to solve the problem? I don’t think so. Has the problem of terrorism been resolved after the US- Iraq war? No. Only lakhs of innocent citizens were killed and property and resources worth millions of dollars was blown up. The terrorists are still there, very much active despite the tight security of so many countries (suddenly I am reminded of  Don’s dialogue, “Don ka intezaar to gyarah mulkon ki police kar rahi hai; par Don ko pakadna mushkil hi nahi, namumkin hai”) and despite the government having confirmed intelligence reports about the terror attacks, they still manage to attack the financial capital of India, and not only that but also hold hostages for more than 3 days in prime locations like Taj hotel, Trident hotel, Nariman point and all. The first people who are saved in the wars are the terrorist groups, thanks to their networking, and only innocent people get killed. Ever paid notice to our  National song, ‘Saare jahan se achcha’? It says, “mazhab nahi sikhata, aapas me bair rakhna…” It means that violence is not preached by any religion, and no sacred book contains the message of sacrifice in the name of God, or country or religion or freedom. It’s the people who get these weird notions in their heads and the entire community is held responsible for the misdoings of a handful of them. Its time we stop blaming each other, and unite in the face of crisis.  

 

 

Either Do.. or dont complain.

It’s been a long time since I have updated my blog. Why? Just because I had nothing worthwhile to share. Life was moving at its own pace and I was breathlessly and pantingly trying to catch up with it. And then the terror attacks on Mumbai happened, and shook the entire world, literally. And in response it seemed like the entire blog community was abuzz with updates about how India should no longer take things lying down and gear up for action. But personally did it affect me? Not much. Infact I wont be exaggerating if I say it just did not affect me at all. It was the usual business here on the campus. Classes, assignments, projects, presentations, write ups, and then having the evening for ourselves. Discussions still surrounded lay offs, GDPs, profit margins, mergers and acquisitions, bankruptcy, India and china and other BRIC countries, the stock market crash of the US and how its affecting India and all. Once in a while we did discuss about terrorism, and had a presentation on it in CBE as well, but after that we went about in our own usual business. Since nothing really happened to me or to my family and friends, I was nonchalant as to what was happening to the rest of the world. Also since I just got to catch the news on TV, say like for 10 minutes each day (ya we live in dark ages), I did not think much about it. I got most of the news through the official websites of the newspapers, and they were sans any melodrama about the grieving families, bullet by bullet news, or of reporters who had not changed their clothes for more than 48 hours or so. Since the pivotal role of media was limited to giving only relevant news, I did not get angry about their show offs and how they were just making money from a national crisis.

 

But yes what really made me realise the gravity of the problem were the forwards and bulk scraps (in other words ‘spams’) that were bombarded on me from all the possible corners, urging us (the youth) to take actions. My question here is will it help? I don’t think so. Atleast I cant see anything happening. You are just doing what you have been protesting against- lamely blaming the government, the police force, the politicians, media, praising the army(NSG)… what else and what not? But is any action been taken? Nopes. The online signed petions, forwarded bulk mails and scraps and messages.. People it just wont help. We actually need to unite and do something. Just the drawing room discussions about how India should do something, we need better politicians and should India go for the war or not wont help much. Just as discussions about how cricketers should play better doesn’t help in winning matches on the field, in the same way only discussions about probable strategies to combat terrorism wont make a damn difference. If I cannot do something, or rather not doing something presently, I atleast spare other people from the bombardment of spams. But I strongly feel that as a nation we are pretty laid back. If it doesn’t affect me, I wont be bothered with it. Aam aadmi ko sab chalta hai. We have a spirit to bounce back. The spirit of Mumbai will bring it back to life. BULLSHIT. We bounce back because we have no other option. We are devoid of any alternatives. Whatever happens we are expected to go about our usual business of either studying or of making money. Nothing, and here I do mean nothing, not even wars or natural calamities, can make us stop and realise our weaknesses. We have loopholes and we have accepted it. To do something about it is just not our cup of tea. We are the followers of Mahatma Gandhi.. we believe in non violence and just accepting whatever we have got. Good, suit yourself. But then please don’t complain or crib about it in every party or meeting with friends. Either do something, or you just have no right to speak. Try and if you fail, then nobody can blame you. But without even trying to do anything or just waiting for the US to do something doesn’t amount to much doing. I guess I can rest my case here. Thank you for bearing with me. 

Frustated me in the Eco. class.. MBA unravelled!!

“ As he traversed on the cubaneous superstrabum of the progeny of musa sapientum, his verticality was transformed into horizontality.”

 

In short he stepped on a banana peel, and fell down.

But we MBA students will not speak in the latter way because its easier to understand, and anybody, read ANYBODY, can read it. So we sprinkle in a lot of jargons, cook the information over the fire of facts and figures, add a teaspoonful of data, a pinch of PPTs and voila! you have the perfect recipe to confuse people with your powerful oration. Similarly, here we don’t “reject a null hypothesis”… we simply “not accept the NH.” Now will someone please volunteer to explain what the hell is the difference between the two? Well I can at least give you a hint: Its 5 marks out of 40. That’s it. Period. Here we major in other subjects or not, we are made experts in preparing PPTs, giving presentations, debating on world issues and working on excel sheets. Thats it. You see its all about "creating" demands, and then confusing the bussinesses & consumers that its The Most Important thing, and cannnot be achieved without our help. So here we go.. Looting money/sucking money out of people, and then saying "Here, we cracked the deal". Confusion and self importance is the way to make money.. seize the oppurtunity today, because competition sells before you.

And the side effects are that since we have wireless here and the speed is pretty decent (touch wood! Boys hostel does'nt have a net connection btw), in the name of "observation & experimentation & research", we end up wasting a lot of time over the net chatting, downloading music and exchanging movies. And creating a big ruckus when IT department blocks orkut & other such social sites under the heading "Matrimonial & Social Interaction sites"... Matrimonial... pahleeeesssss... give us a break! Recently we are on a 'Remove our lecturer' mission against one women.. but as i can foresee its not gonna help. Just increased our workload thats it. And a lot of suspensions, out -of -hostel-and -placement orders as well (ofcourse "taking the lenient view")... here we have one hell of a rebel batch. Actually its also a part of our corporate learning in the form of Labour Union training and stuff....

Dunno what i have been going on blabbering all this while.. But then the title itself says, "The frustated me"... cant really help it. Cheers!!!

I MISS YOU… Still…

I miss you when I cry,
Because you are no more there to hold me,
I miss you when I am happy,
Because you are no more there to share it with me,
I miss you when I m troubled,
Because you are no more there to understand me.
I miss you when it rains,
Because you are no more there to tease me.
I miss you when I am awake,
Because you are no more there to talk to.
I miss you when am trying to sleep,
Because you are no more there to text me good night.
I miss you when I am asleep,
Because you are no more there in my dreams.

I miss you all the time,
But especially when I think of all the good times we spent together,
And now I realize how I have lost them,
They were the best moments I spent with you.
I try to hear the raindrops falling on the roof,
But all I hear are my tears falling on the cheeks,
And know that I am missing you.

It felt so good when you said am special and close to you,
You made me feel like an angel,
We used to talk for hours on the phone, and meet on every weekend,
And after every meeting it felt like a dream.
Friendship was everything, and love heaven.

I miss our phone calls at all hours of day and night,
Our walks in the park and on the road,
Our bus rides, and bus stop dates,
Our CCD and McD hangouts,
Planning for the future in Taj suites,
Our messages and chats,
Our sharing, our caring for each other,
Our code words, and laughing on each other’s friends,
Joking about rains and clouds,
Telling each other everything that happened during the day,
No matter how immaterial that might be,
We could not survive without each other,
And now we cannot live with each other.
Now our fights have become more important than our friendship,
Love ruined everything.

Now that you are gone, it pains to think
Not only have I lost my love, but my best friend as well.
It hurts to miss you,
Hurts to think about the wrong choices I made- too late I realised,
Too many mistakes, and I lost you forever.
But you have not lost my love,
You are my world, my haven
I can never forget you,
And it breaks my heart everyday,
To think I don’t have you, and can never have you,
Yet I miss you.



Its more like the lyrics of “I need you” by Marc Anthony,

" Oh baby, I need you
For the rest of my life, boy
I need you
To make everything right, boy
I love you
And I'll never deny that
I need you..."

P.S. This is neither a poem, nor a prose. This has no rhyme or rhythm. It has got nothing, saying in the traditional sense, just my raw feelings for my best friend whom i lost to time and circumstances.