Why??

I just came back to my room and thought of sharing a small thought of mine with everyone...

 

As I was having dinner with my friends today, invariably our discussion turned towards the Mumbai terror attacks and how Bangalore is also under threat (apparently our Presi got a mail from the police department today stating that Electronic City is under scanner, and so we all need to be extra careful, and henceforth a lot of restrictions have been imposed upon us till the situation cools off.) Everybody was discussing a lot of ideas, and prominently amongst them was that somehow Muslims have always had a part in it, and how bombing Pakistan would solve half the world’s problems. On this I debated fervently because personally I have known and still know so many of them that I strongly feel that no particular sect or country is responsible for terrorism. The people of Pakistan are as guiltless of these attacks as are the people of India. They are not at fault for their government’s doings. Even if Pak is bombed, is it going to solve the problem? I don’t think so. Has the problem of terrorism been resolved after the US- Iraq war? No. Only lakhs of innocent citizens were killed and property and resources worth millions of dollars was blown up. The terrorists are still there, very much active despite the tight security of so many countries (suddenly I am reminded of  Don’s dialogue, “Don ka intezaar to gyarah mulkon ki police kar rahi hai; par Don ko pakadna mushkil hi nahi, namumkin hai”) and despite the government having confirmed intelligence reports about the terror attacks, they still manage to attack the financial capital of India, and not only that but also hold hostages for more than 3 days in prime locations like Taj hotel, Trident hotel, Nariman point and all. The first people who are saved in the wars are the terrorist groups, thanks to their networking, and only innocent people get killed. Ever paid notice to our  National song, ‘Saare jahan se achcha’? It says, “mazhab nahi sikhata, aapas me bair rakhna…” It means that violence is not preached by any religion, and no sacred book contains the message of sacrifice in the name of God, or country or religion or freedom. It’s the people who get these weird notions in their heads and the entire community is held responsible for the misdoings of a handful of them. Its time we stop blaming each other, and unite in the face of crisis.  

 

 

Either Do.. or dont complain.

It’s been a long time since I have updated my blog. Why? Just because I had nothing worthwhile to share. Life was moving at its own pace and I was breathlessly and pantingly trying to catch up with it. And then the terror attacks on Mumbai happened, and shook the entire world, literally. And in response it seemed like the entire blog community was abuzz with updates about how India should no longer take things lying down and gear up for action. But personally did it affect me? Not much. Infact I wont be exaggerating if I say it just did not affect me at all. It was the usual business here on the campus. Classes, assignments, projects, presentations, write ups, and then having the evening for ourselves. Discussions still surrounded lay offs, GDPs, profit margins, mergers and acquisitions, bankruptcy, India and china and other BRIC countries, the stock market crash of the US and how its affecting India and all. Once in a while we did discuss about terrorism, and had a presentation on it in CBE as well, but after that we went about in our own usual business. Since nothing really happened to me or to my family and friends, I was nonchalant as to what was happening to the rest of the world. Also since I just got to catch the news on TV, say like for 10 minutes each day (ya we live in dark ages), I did not think much about it. I got most of the news through the official websites of the newspapers, and they were sans any melodrama about the grieving families, bullet by bullet news, or of reporters who had not changed their clothes for more than 48 hours or so. Since the pivotal role of media was limited to giving only relevant news, I did not get angry about their show offs and how they were just making money from a national crisis.

 

But yes what really made me realise the gravity of the problem were the forwards and bulk scraps (in other words ‘spams’) that were bombarded on me from all the possible corners, urging us (the youth) to take actions. My question here is will it help? I don’t think so. Atleast I cant see anything happening. You are just doing what you have been protesting against- lamely blaming the government, the police force, the politicians, media, praising the army(NSG)… what else and what not? But is any action been taken? Nopes. The online signed petions, forwarded bulk mails and scraps and messages.. People it just wont help. We actually need to unite and do something. Just the drawing room discussions about how India should do something, we need better politicians and should India go for the war or not wont help much. Just as discussions about how cricketers should play better doesn’t help in winning matches on the field, in the same way only discussions about probable strategies to combat terrorism wont make a damn difference. If I cannot do something, or rather not doing something presently, I atleast spare other people from the bombardment of spams. But I strongly feel that as a nation we are pretty laid back. If it doesn’t affect me, I wont be bothered with it. Aam aadmi ko sab chalta hai. We have a spirit to bounce back. The spirit of Mumbai will bring it back to life. BULLSHIT. We bounce back because we have no other option. We are devoid of any alternatives. Whatever happens we are expected to go about our usual business of either studying or of making money. Nothing, and here I do mean nothing, not even wars or natural calamities, can make us stop and realise our weaknesses. We have loopholes and we have accepted it. To do something about it is just not our cup of tea. We are the followers of Mahatma Gandhi.. we believe in non violence and just accepting whatever we have got. Good, suit yourself. But then please don’t complain or crib about it in every party or meeting with friends. Either do something, or you just have no right to speak. Try and if you fail, then nobody can blame you. But without even trying to do anything or just waiting for the US to do something doesn’t amount to much doing. I guess I can rest my case here. Thank you for bearing with me. 

Frustated me in the Eco. class.. MBA unravelled!!

“ As he traversed on the cubaneous superstrabum of the progeny of musa sapientum, his verticality was transformed into horizontality.”

 

In short he stepped on a banana peel, and fell down.

But we MBA students will not speak in the latter way because its easier to understand, and anybody, read ANYBODY, can read it. So we sprinkle in a lot of jargons, cook the information over the fire of facts and figures, add a teaspoonful of data, a pinch of PPTs and voila! you have the perfect recipe to confuse people with your powerful oration. Similarly, here we don’t “reject a null hypothesis”… we simply “not accept the NH.” Now will someone please volunteer to explain what the hell is the difference between the two? Well I can at least give you a hint: Its 5 marks out of 40. That’s it. Period. Here we major in other subjects or not, we are made experts in preparing PPTs, giving presentations, debating on world issues and working on excel sheets. Thats it. You see its all about "creating" demands, and then confusing the bussinesses & consumers that its The Most Important thing, and cannnot be achieved without our help. So here we go.. Looting money/sucking money out of people, and then saying "Here, we cracked the deal". Confusion and self importance is the way to make money.. seize the oppurtunity today, because competition sells before you.

And the side effects are that since we have wireless here and the speed is pretty decent (touch wood! Boys hostel does'nt have a net connection btw), in the name of "observation & experimentation & research", we end up wasting a lot of time over the net chatting, downloading music and exchanging movies. And creating a big ruckus when IT department blocks orkut & other such social sites under the heading "Matrimonial & Social Interaction sites"... Matrimonial... pahleeeesssss... give us a break! Recently we are on a 'Remove our lecturer' mission against one women.. but as i can foresee its not gonna help. Just increased our workload thats it. And a lot of suspensions, out -of -hostel-and -placement orders as well (ofcourse "taking the lenient view")... here we have one hell of a rebel batch. Actually its also a part of our corporate learning in the form of Labour Union training and stuff....

Dunno what i have been going on blabbering all this while.. But then the title itself says, "The frustated me"... cant really help it. Cheers!!!

I MISS YOU… Still…

I miss you when I cry,
Because you are no more there to hold me,
I miss you when I am happy,
Because you are no more there to share it with me,
I miss you when I m troubled,
Because you are no more there to understand me.
I miss you when it rains,
Because you are no more there to tease me.
I miss you when I am awake,
Because you are no more there to talk to.
I miss you when am trying to sleep,
Because you are no more there to text me good night.
I miss you when I am asleep,
Because you are no more there in my dreams.

I miss you all the time,
But especially when I think of all the good times we spent together,
And now I realize how I have lost them,
They were the best moments I spent with you.
I try to hear the raindrops falling on the roof,
But all I hear are my tears falling on the cheeks,
And know that I am missing you.

It felt so good when you said am special and close to you,
You made me feel like an angel,
We used to talk for hours on the phone, and meet on every weekend,
And after every meeting it felt like a dream.
Friendship was everything, and love heaven.

I miss our phone calls at all hours of day and night,
Our walks in the park and on the road,
Our bus rides, and bus stop dates,
Our CCD and McD hangouts,
Planning for the future in Taj suites,
Our messages and chats,
Our sharing, our caring for each other,
Our code words, and laughing on each other’s friends,
Joking about rains and clouds,
Telling each other everything that happened during the day,
No matter how immaterial that might be,
We could not survive without each other,
And now we cannot live with each other.
Now our fights have become more important than our friendship,
Love ruined everything.

Now that you are gone, it pains to think
Not only have I lost my love, but my best friend as well.
It hurts to miss you,
Hurts to think about the wrong choices I made- too late I realised,
Too many mistakes, and I lost you forever.
But you have not lost my love,
You are my world, my haven
I can never forget you,
And it breaks my heart everyday,
To think I don’t have you, and can never have you,
Yet I miss you.



Its more like the lyrics of “I need you” by Marc Anthony,

" Oh baby, I need you
For the rest of my life, boy
I need you
To make everything right, boy
I love you
And I'll never deny that
I need you..."

P.S. This is neither a poem, nor a prose. This has no rhyme or rhythm. It has got nothing, saying in the traditional sense, just my raw feelings for my best friend whom i lost to time and circumstances.

Sounds & Music... Its Magik... ROCK ON !!!

Now that my blog shows that its been 3 weeks since i have updated it, and a lot of my well wishers have also pointed out the obvious to me, here i am with an update. But honestly i dont have something really interesting or intelligent to write about, so am doing the musical tag (i was tagged like in my last birth, but i chose to ignore it then, so that other than fighting and later apologising i can do something constructive in this birth as well..) So cutting the chase short lets straight get down to business...

The rules of the game are pretty simple. First of all, put your MP3 player/media player on shuffle. For each question, press the next button for your answer. You should write the song down, NO MATTER WHAT and hey, NO CHEATING!!!

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?", YOU SAY?

Meherbaan- Jal. In other situations i would normally have told the truth, but now the song says, "Tere bina main bezameen, tere bina main beaasmaan.. tu hatheli, main henna.. aaj aelaan yeh kar denge, ek hain ek rahenge...." I guess this means whatever you say darling is right.

2. WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?

Aawarapan banjarapan- Jism. "Aawarapan, banjarapan, ek khala hai seene me.. Iss dharti par jis pal suraj roz savere ugta hai, apne liye to roz usi pal dhala hai seene me.. jaane yeh kaisi aag lagi hai, iss me dhuan na chingari, ho na ho iss pal koi khwab jala hai seene me.." This means i am nomadic and a night person. I prefer to watch movies on my laptop when everybody in my hostel is fast asleep, and then have problems getting up early in the morning. In this trimester, i have also specialised in dozing off in between the lectures, you see i am on the last bench again, so no audio or video interference from the lecturers disturb me.

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?

Kuch is tarah- Atif. "Kuch iss tarah teri palkein meri palkon se mila de, aansun tere saare meri palkon pe saaja de... tu har ghadi har waqt mere saath raha hai, haan yeh jism kabhi door kabhi paas raha hai, jo bhi gam hai tere unhe tu mera pata de... mujhko to tere chehre pe yeh gam nahi jachta, jayaz nahi lagta mujhe gam se tera rishta.." I like honesty and straight forwardness in people. But for the person i like/love its mandatory to share his (i am straight, no doubts on that.) problems with me; this makes me feel better and close to that person. And if i cannot solve things, i can atleast be with him (not physically but emotionally)

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

Ahista ahista- Bachna ae hasino. "Ahista ahista mujhe yakeen ho gaya, ahista ahista yeh dil yahin kho gaya.. hua yeh pehli baar, mujhe ho gaya hai pyaar... " Ya i am in love, totally and completely love struck. And quite evident from my playlist, i am a little mushy and romantic by nature.

5. WHAT IS THE PURPOSE OF YOUR LIFE?

Ae zindagi gale laga le- Sadma. "Ae zindagi gale laga le, hum ne bhi tere har gam ko gale lagaya hai.." Tackle the problems head on, nothing matters very much and few things matter at all. Though i get very agitated at first, but in the long run, beleive me, time clears the debris on its own.

6. WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

Lonely- Akon. "I really wanna make things right, because without you my life's so lonely..." Making everything so right, that my loved ones are never in any kind of trouble. I am made up of my family and friends who surround me, without whom i am all incomplete and lost.

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

Bandagi- Drona. "Palchhin palchhin uljhi uljhi ek raina, dhankan dhadkan bikhre bikhre se chaina, milo chale hai gumsum yeh khamoshi, kitna bhi samjhaon yeh manena.. iss dil me goonje reh reh kar aur bijli sagar jaisa aur hairaan kare par reh jaaye badal yeh bin barse..." My best friend's only complain is that i dont speak up my problems or my emotions, i expect too much to be understood by way of silences.

8. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?

Baahon ke darmiyan- Khamoshi. "Baahon ke darmiyan, do pyaar mil rahe hain.. " Lets just say that the love nest my parents have made for me and my bro is the safest haven of all places on the world.

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

Ae mere humsafar- Qayamat se qayamat tak. "Ab hai judaai ka mausam do pal ka mehmaan, kaise na jaiga andhera, kyon na thamega tufan, kaisa na milegi manzil pyar ki.. " One of the dialogues of Laws of attraction goes on like this, 'So one little hiccup and we give in? Fight for what you beleive in. Fight fair, fight dirty, but fight. Fight to save your love." I totally beleive in it. Leaving should never be an option, if it is, then you'll never fight hard enough to make the things work. The song from the same movie (I watched it yesterday, its hang over's still on!!) says, "Then that time i went and said goodbye; Oh! now i am back and not ashamed to cry; Oh baby here i am; Signed, sealed, delivered, I'm Yours."

10. WHAT IS 2+2?

Zara zara- Rehna hai tere dil me. Can't really make out anything out of it. Guess i should have selected the songs keeping in mind the questions, or atleast cheated a bit to come up with a really suitable answer.

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

Teri ore- Singh is king. "Dil kho gaya, ho gaya kisi ka, ab raasta mil gaya khushi ka, aankhon me hai khwab sa kisi ka, ab raasta mil gaya khushi ka, rishta naya rabba dil choo raha hai, khiche mujhe koi dor, teri ore..." I am attracted to both of them for their ability to make me laugh and spread goodness all around. By the way this is the only decent song from this movie.

12. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Take me home country roads- John Denver. "Country roads take me home, to the place i belong, West Virginia (New Delhi), mountain mama take me home.. all my memory gather around her (him).. " Its in Delhi that we first met, and have all the fond memories of that place and that time. How i wish i never had to come down to Bangalore.

13. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

Hamein itna pyaar- Jal. "Hamein itna pyaar na karo ki hum mar jaye, humein itna tanha na karo ki jee na paye.. koi dil ka karaar jaane na, koi mann ki yeh baat bataye na, koi ankhon hi ankhon me keh de yeh baat.. " I work in extreme cases; either i am totally into a person or the person does not matter to me at all. Same with situations. So those who are close to me understand me and for others i am and will always remain an enigma. Pretty simple, no?

14. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

Yeh tumhari meri baatein- Rock on. "Yeh tumhari meri baatein yuhi chalti rahe.. beete yuhi apne saare din raat, baaton se nikalti rahe nayi baat, phir wahi baate leke geet koi hum likhe, jo dil ko haan sabke dil ko choo le, baatein suron me yuhi pighalti rahe, baatein geeton me yuhi dhalti rahe.." Famous and successful and satisfied. Much talked about amongst people (positively ofcourse) is also on the list.

15. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Hum tum- Hum tum. "Saanson ko saanson me dhalne do zara, dheemi si dhadkan ko badhne do zara, lamhon ki guzarish hai yeh paas aa jaye, hum tum... aankhon me humko utarne do zara, baahon me humko pighalne do zara, lamhon ki guzarish hai yeh paas aaye zara.." Isn't it self explanatory? Lolz.

16. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?

Khuda jaane- Bachna ae hasino. "Sajde me yuhi jhukta hoon, tum pe hi aake rukta hoon, kya yeh sabko hota hai.. hum ko kya lena hai sabse, tum se hi sab baatein ab se, ban gaye ho tum meri dua.." I am very important to my parents, as much as they are to me. Only they matter, and what they think matters to me. Nothing more, nothing less.

17. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

Jaane Kyon- Dostana. "Tu hai to tedi meri raahein, ulti pulti baatein, seethi lagti hai; tu hai to jhoote moote vaade, dushman ke iraade sachche lagte hai, dil me jo taare waare de jagah tu hi hai, jo rote rote de hasa tu hi hai, jaane kyon dil jaata hai, tu hai to i'll be all right.. saari duniya ek taraf ek taraf hain hum.." I hope the person i marry will be my best friend, around whom i'll be all right.. We both will make things all right for us.

18. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

Kal ho na ho- Kal ho na ho. "Har ghadi badal rahi hai roop zindagi, chaon hai kabhi, kabhi hai dhoop zindagi, har pal yahan jee bhar jiyo, jo hai sama kal ho na ho..' Perfect song for perfect occassion. Live and Laugh, the life's too short to be taken seriously.

19. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

Kahin to- Jaane tu ja jaane na. "Jaane na kahan woh duniya hai, jaane na woh hai ki ya nahi.." In short d-r-e-a-m-i-n-g.

20. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

Phir dekhiye- Rock on. "Ankhon me jiske, koi to khwab hai, khush hai wahi jo thoda betaab hai, zindagi me koi aarzu kijiye, phir dekhiye.. hoonthon pe jiske koi to geet hai, wo haare bhi to uski hi jeet hai..." To confess i am the least carrer oriented and most carefree person you'll find around, but now maybe i have understood the value of some of the things that i used to take for granted earlier.

21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

Nazrein milana- Jaane tu ya jaane na. "Dil kabhi ganda, kabhi hai ek banda, dil ka bharosa kaise koi kare; dil kabhi thanda, kabhi hai atom bomb sa, yeh dhamaka kaise koi sahe; dil ki yahi khata hai, dil ko nahi pata hai; ki dil chahta hai kya?" Firstly my friends are as bindaas as is the group in this movie, we totally care and value and respect each other... and are equally clueless about the world that looks at us. Touch wood!

22. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOURSELF?

Mausam- Kidnap. "Mausam yeh awesome bada, jadoo chha gaya.." I think this song describes the weather, and the weather here in blore is awesome most of the time. But where do i feature in the scheme of things? Maybe where i get happy seeing the awesome mausam, and put off by incessant rains or scorching sun..

23. WHAT WILL YOU NAME YOUR POST?

U, Me aur Hum- U, me aur hum. "I am kind of feeling incomplete in my heart, and we can never be apart; you make me feel complete bcz you are a part of me.." This song more suits ques. no. 15, but nonetheless i'll dedicate this song to my blog as well. Too good song by the way.

24. WHAT SONG ARE YOU? (I am repeating Azra's ques.. she tagged me after all..)

Tum ho to- Rock on. "Tum ho to, gaata hai dil; tum nahi to geet kahan; tum ho to sab haasil, tum nahi to kya hai yahan; tum ho to sapno ke jaisa hai haseen yeh samaa..." Main to apni favourite hoon. Period.

P.S. I did not cheat. Some songs really suited the ques but i am plain lucky in this matter i guess. The playlist is titled, MD Soft.